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Every moment of every work day is about being “on” , facing a group of kiddos, mingling with them, nudging their learning, planting ideas, listening, and responding.
The moment I step into my room, boom! I’m “on”. I’ve been teaching long enough that I can’t really remember those jittery first years, when the bell would ring, the kids would take their places, and I would have that momentary flash of: “What am I doing here? I can’t believe that I am responsible for everything that happens with these kids for the next 50 minutes! Arghhh! Help!!!” … you know, panic! Years of teaching bring the gift of confidence…
…until I have to present to a group of teachers. Then I am back to the jittery first year of teaching days. Unbidden questions and comments jumble and jostle their way into my head: Why am I standing in front of these teachers, as though I actually have something to teach them? Are they interested in what I have to say? Are they listening? Awake? Why are so many sitting at the back – do they want to make a quick escape already? Why did I have that fourth cup of coffee? Is it okay to ask for a bathroom break in the middle of a presentation? Will they even notice if I left the room? I think the elastic on my right sock just gave way. Am I speaking too fast, too slow, too…? Is it over yet? Is 3:30 (by which time we would have presented and packed up) too early for a glass of wine?